My First Thousand Notes Post
So I finally got a post that reached a thousand notes in less than a day and honestly, I wasn’t happy about my post that got a thousand notes. It’s not because I’m one of those hypocrites who keeps running their mouth about how 'they don't care at all about the notes', 'I'm just here to express myself' and other shits because let’s be honest, I also believe that those notes aren’t as important to obsess about because blogging, is initially and originally, all about the expression but those notes are there for a reason and it’s not just to show how popular you are but I think it also shows an estimate of how many bloggers out there as well, share your feelings on a certain post; how many bloggers out there, are empathizing with you.
"You keep talking about finding and meeting someone when you hardly even knew the person that’s right in front of you. Get to know her, before she realizes what a waste it is to wait for you to speak."
"The less you trust, the less you’re bothered with whatever the hell they could do to you."
"Anyone can tell us the right thing to do, but only we can tell ourselves what will make us happy."
The 3 Days Case Study: The N File
November 25-27, 2013 were the dates to bake and sell cupcakes for the Negosyo Letranista fair. While I was busy smiling, selling and micromanaging marketing, I found the time to be the ever curious cat and tried my best to gain as much information as I can from N himself and it was surprisingly easy which honestly, kind of bothers me.
This is a summary of what I’ve accumulated over the 3 days and whatever findings I came up with are solely based on those 3 days. None of them necessarily defines his true character nor do I completely believe any of it. Although personally, I’m liking all the findings on those days and I can’t think of a reason why he would fabricate any of it and go through the lengths to tell me so much when there wasn’t anything to gain from me.
Anyway, here are what I came up with:
He’s an Open Book.This is very surprising. I know I’m fairly skilled in making people talk, but this could be any of the following: (1) he’s easy and open, (2) he’s conniving, (3) he’s self-absorbed, or (4) he just really finds me worthy of trust. Anyway, this was surprising because while I’m skilled in getting details from the people themselves, I usually still have to go certain lengths to gain whatever it is I need to gain to prove myself worthy of trust but with him, it was easier than I have expected. I gained a lot of necessary and unnecessary information. He’s a bit of a TMI kind of guy and normally I’d hate that kind of people but I actually find his tales quite interesting and funny to hear. I’d tell all about it here but I’m not supposed to.
He’s a Martyr for Love. This is assuming his stories of love aren’t fabricated. I can’t tell any of it here but based from his experience, he’s a martyr and I actually find it a bit sad yet warming that he’s that kind of a person. I’m aware that this may sound against my better judgement and skepticism, but I’ve made a lot of people talk about this kind of things and almost every one of them are proud to say what an ass they are but he’s one of the few who implicitly admitted to being a martyr while acknowledging his own mistakes modestly. Normally, the conniving ones would only admit how much of a martyr and charming they are when it comes to love but I’d really like to believe his honesty when he also admitted to sharing the blame.
He’s a Charmer. This one is an interesting find. I don’t think he’s aware that he’s quite the charmer in his own little ways. I can see why there are talks about how sometimes he’s "paasa". He’s sometimes unaware that his actions translate too sweetly to some so the slightest cold shoulders he give, also translate to a greater level. Kindness is often interpreted incorrectly when feelings are present. That’s why I think he needs to learn about this.
He Loves Children. I hate to admit it but this finding is just adorable! I’ve witnessed his fondness for the little kiddos. He gave our cake pops for free to 7 or 9 children and you can tell that it wasn’t just because he finds them adorable because he was literally chasing them to give out our treats for free (he paid for all of it afterwards). Even though some of the children got scared and rejected his offer, he was persuasive to give them for free and he succeeded. And it was such a delight to see him smile so naturally whenever he’s watching them run around and he’s especially happy whenever they would accept his gift. I actually made a comment about how he loves kids and he just gladly admitted to it and even shared a very cute story about it. This is actually one of his traits that made him so genuinely fucking adorable as an OTP partner for my friendbut at the same time, this was pissing me off. Part of the investigation was to get some dirt to balance things out but after witnessing this, I was mixed with "Aww" and "Are you fucking kidding me? You’re that adorable? Give me something to hate here!”.
He’s Incredibly Generous. This is weird yet interesting. As a manipulative person, I’m capable of getting free stuffs and making people do what I want but all of those, came with a toll but again, when it comes to him it was rather easy. I’ve considered the idea that it could be a form of appreciation for all the help I’ve lent but there were three of us who volunteered for my friend’s sake and it was evident that the most help I gave were selling cupcakes, folding a few boxes and bossing him around which I don’t think anyone would really appreciate so much yet for some reason I was the only one who literally got all the goods from him. I had to share them to make it less weird. I don’t know if he was trying to fatten me like a skinny turkey for thanksgiving or if he was just incredibly generous or did he feel bullied to do it or… I don’t even wanna go to that possible reason. Somehow, money isn’t an object for him. And it’s actually disturbing because I also heard from my friend that he’s not normally like that. He doesn’t really treat friends for any free stuffs yet magically, he gave me free foods, drinks and two shirts and I didn’t even ask for some of the foods. He just went out of the stall and came back with it and he didn’t even bother to buy some for the others. It was just…weird. I don’t even wanna think about this anymore but truly, I deeply appreciated all of it. It was just weird.
So that’s it. That’s the summary of The N File. I’m not quite sure how I’ll continue it but it’s highly unlikely that I’ll be able to. As I expected, this investigation created more mysteries than answers. After typing the last segment, I’m actually disrupted right now to create any hypothesis.
Let’s end it here but if I were to ask you, what are your thoughts on this?