Is it selfish to want a career out of passion and dreams? Or is living life with cash and a big house the only goal that truly matters in this world?
When I was young I was never taught to dream by my parents and I didn’t. I’ve always love just living in the ‘now’. No one in my family ever asked me what I would want to be one day. But then I went to High school, I gained friends and I learned how to dream; to have passion even just a little. I get that they’re not big on supporting your children’s dreams and that’s okay because that has always been my fire; to dream big and actually reach it.
But it has been difficult lately, not getting any support because they think you’re only setting yourself up for failure. I’ve never asked for anything because I’m always trying not to be so dependent and proving that I can do it but just once, I’d like to see them do something to show that maybe they could support me on what I want. Growing up, I have no idea what to dream about. My only goal back then was to finish and land whatever job I could get to be free; was it so wrong that I’ve learned to actually want something out of passion and not hate?
Am I supposed to live my entire life in constant conflict, trying to prove that I can actually reach my dreams? They always tell me to get a job for now but I don’t think I have the time for that. It’s easier said than done and I just learned to be passionate lately, so I know that setting it aside even for a moment will make me fall back to the convenient, mediocre of a life that I have escaped from. I’ve seen passionate people lose their interests, and it kills me whenever I hear them saying ‘it’s too late’. I don’t want to be one of them. I want to live.
I’ve had a comfortable life and I know it’s because of their sacrifices but I don’t think that’s meant to remind their children to just sacrifice their dreams too for them, right? Or is that how life really is?
Just once I’d like to feel like I’m not some investment, waiting to happen. Just once, I’d like to be able to ask for something and know that they’re here to support my choices.